History We Carry : A Daughter's Memoir

When Margaret Whitford''s mother was dying, she told those present that her daughter ''had her history.'' This was true; Margaret had conducted interviews with her mother during the last decade of her life. But this didn''t end their estrangement, and Margaret chose not to return to her mother''s side during her final days. In this memoir, Margaret confronts this decision by unearthing in her mother''s traumatic history the roots of the emotional distance between them. She explores how a history marked by the devastation of World War II in Europe, a violent childhood home, and sexual assault accumulated into complex PTSD that shaped her mother and the way she parented Margaret as her firstborn and as a daughter - and, in turn, how Margaret carried her mother''s trauma forward in her sense of self, in her relationships to others, and in the ways she navigated her world. Indeed, Margaret not only had her mother''s history - she embodied it. Ultimately, The History We Carry confronts the legacy of intergenerational trauma with wisdom and compassion, revealing how familial history shapes each of us but need not be wholly determinative of whom we become and how we choose to live.